I Cry-Get Over It!!!

Okay, so this morning I was watching Criminal Minds that I had DVRed from last night and my husband comes in. I make it to the end and (SPOILER ALERT) Prentiss is "killed". I begin crying and my husband gets so angry at me. He has known me for most of my life and knows how I am. Not sure why he was surprised that I was crying. I cry at everything-movies, tv, books, commercials, songs, billboards, etc... Everyone who knows me knows this about me, but yet they cannot comment every time it happens (usually not nice comments either!). So, I think I shall watch things only in private-nah they can get over it!

Got to go antiquing today and only bought a few things. But I am very excited about the candy molds I found that go with my lamb mold! My cousin said they were too much work, I think she is jealous! I kept thinking I would see something that would jump out at me that I had to have, but nothing did. It was a nice trip down memory lane-a purse that looks like a basket that my Grandma used to carry, my mother's coveted dishes, green-glass glasses, etc...

My 2 kids that still live at home, have been at their grandparents all week. Yes, this has been a nice break, but I miss them dearly! Heck, I miss my 20 year old daughter too (even though she does not like to come to our new home). It is quite odd to get up in the morning and not have to tend to my little boy's every desire. So, I will be going to get them tomorrow. Probably be ready to send them back the next day!!!

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

Yep, It's Short!

So today, I decided it was time to make some changes. And the easiest thing to change is one's hair, so I went for it! Cut it all off and went super short. Husband doesn't like it, but not my problem (hahaha!) Have not had my hair this short for about 20 years and it feels good. Now to start with a new attitude and get my butt back in gear.

Yesterday was a twist day around here. Took hubby to see his doctor and had lots of discussions at to what could be causing his stomach pain. Decided to run more tests and revisit the idea that he may have renal cell carcinoma. Scared about what this may mean, but thankful we may be close to a diagnosis. That is the hardest part, we have no idea what it is and the unknown is so much scarier than the known.

Today is a day of turbulence, which is most days around here. He started a new medicine and seems to not be tolerating it that well. Hopefully, once his system is used to it he begins to feel better. If you haven't figured it out yet, my husband has more than a few health problems.

Feeling a little sassy with my new do, I went and did a little thrift shopping. I love to find great bargains, hate to pay full price for anything. Tomorrow I am headed to the local antique shops, hopefully there will be more bargains to have!!!!

Oh, What A Year!!!

In little over a year, I have gone from energetic and optimistic to exhausted and forlorn. I have moved from hometown #2 and started a new job. All this while my husband has been in and out of the hospital, having procedure after procedure with still no idea (over 8 months later) what is wrong or how to fix it! My oldest child has moved into the dorm, my middle child started a new middle school, and my baby boy started school. It has been a huge year for us and unfortunately everything is not coming up roses!

To be honest, I had high hopes for this move. We were being transferred to a town that had more opportunities for our children and even ourselves. We would be closer to 1 of the 2 "big cities" in our state. We had found the perfect house in a great neighborhood, we had all hated our old house. I looked at this as an adventure and that is what I got-just not the type of adventure I had planned!!!

So, here I sit, a year after they announced where and when we would move and my life is nothing like I had envisioned. I am not the person I was a year a go. Heck, I am not the person I was 6 months ago for that fact! Wow, I sound like a real "Debbie Downer"!!

Now for my hopes (and fear) for this blog. My main hope is that it will help me deal with the hand I have been dealt. I also hope that it will be an outlet for my emotions and a maybe (if someone should actually read this blog) help others in a similar situation or at least connect with others. My fear is that no one will ever read this. Which is okay, because the main reason I am doing this is for me!

Hoping for better days ahead!!